A White Flower

Although I m still young, lately I've been thinking, I wish I was a white flower, and didn't exist as a human being, however, after deep thinking, I always say thanks to the one & only creator, ALLAH, who have created me, for a purpose, in this life...

Thoughts that make me feel don't want to exist, is the work routine, family issues, personal chaos, cruelty of life, and most importantly SINS!!!*

Thoughts that make me feel want to exist, wanting to be an entrepeneur, creating a family, personal lifestyle, and most importantly good DEEDS!!!**

*As for the Sins part, I always remember the ayah that says:
يا ليتني كنت ترابا
**As for the good Deeds part, I always remember the afterlife and what accompanies it:
فيها ما لا عين رأت ولا أذن سمعت ولا خطر على قلب بشر

All the above has nothing to do with my goals, ambition, message, and purpose in life; they are just thoughts...